When I found out I was pregnant the first time, I was in a state of shock. It wasn't expected but it led me to the door of one of the most powerful woman that I know. She is a homeopath and a naturopath, but she calls herself a healer. She told me that it is her belief that our children come to us at a specific time because they have something to teach us. You may not be expecting this little baby, but you need to open your heart, mind and soul to them and use some introspection to learn these lessons from them. For 5 years I have been in a constant flux of trying to better myself, trying to be the perfect mother (and wife). I felt it all the more my duty as I have birthed two beautiful girls, and I want them to grow to be strong, courageous, independent and fiercely female.
It has not been easy, I have fallen at many posts and I think the last few months I really did reach the bottom - a cloudy, murky place of self doubt and guilt. But with Taryn's help again, I am clearing things, sorting my soul and discarding the junk. I am ready to equip myself with the spiritual and physical tools I need.
I am keen to study again, in fact it is a necessity, so am looking here , but I might have to wait until next year, as I may have missed this years intake. But there is so much I could do to get ready before now and then.
I am keeping a gratitude journal next to my bed, and write daily about the things I am grateful for.
I am reading this and this, and I am incorporating a much healthier kitchen - although the bank balance may groan about it.....alot!!!
I am 33 years old, and I think I am finally realising that life was just passing me by. My children feed my soul, I am utterly and desperately in love with them, but I think I forgot to loveand nourish myself too.
It is such an easy mistake to make...
If perhaps this is echoing to you too, I would say your first port of call is here
