She also has a little bub in her tummy and really made me stop and think about our baby again. I think I have just got so fed up with waiting and preoccupied with how uncomfortable I am, that I have stopped focussing on the all important things going on in my heart and soul.
So here is what Taryn had to say:
The term pregnant pause is used to describe a time of quiet, it is a pause filled with meaning - one in which expectant listeners wait for something significant or profound to be delivered. In a spiritual context it refers to a time of reflection, a time of looking back from where we have come, then collecting ourselves in the present in preparation for that which is to be birthed next in our lives
Our baby is due on Saturday, and I thought I was prepared, but I am not sure how prepared you ever can be. I have watched my belly grow, and grow, and grow......I have been fascinated in the moves our baby makes, how it loves to fit its bottom right into my sternum as if to say "hi mom, don't forget me, I'm here, I'm growing, and I'm coming soon!"
I am so used to being the mother on one, of being Scout's mom and like Taryn, that role has defined so much of my life in the last 4 years. I love being her mom, and would do anything for my child. I also mourned how our relationship is going to change; but what has overcome that, is the satisfaction that Scout and I are entering a new dynamic in our relationship. She is going to be the big sister, and I know she is going to love that. Knowing I have to share my time soon, means for now, in these last few precious days I am taking all these precious moments with her and storing them into my memory box.
I have gone through a myriad of emotions with this pregnancy, and now as I know our baby will be here soon I just have to breathe out, keep calm, and wait for it. I have to allow my body to take over now, the time for thinking and worrying is over. I am going to let myself be blanketed in my basic mothering instincts, and let those flow over my child and my husband.
A new life, and a new beginning...
“Making the decision to have a child is momentous. It is to decide forever to have your heart go walking around outside your body.”
Elizabeth Stone
