As I sit here, Mr A. is banging away in the garden - he is making us a chicken coop; and Mouse is splashing in the bath down the hall. Out the window it is getting dusky, and the sky has been a constant grey all day - with a little bit of drizzle thrown in now and then for good fun!
I have had an odd couple of days. I am feeling a bit strung out over events at home. My eldest sister is facing very unfair and quite honestly ridiculous accusations at work. She is the most decent, hard-working person I know. She has changed her role recently and has been lecturing tertiary level students at an agricultural college. She is tinier than me but would not have two thoughts about taking on a bull , and I think she looks very cute perched on a tractor. But that's not the point. My sister is good, I mean REALLY GOOD at her job, and some lazy-ass students of hers who got into super-big-poo are trying to shift the blame onto her. And it be incredibly honest it is frippity-frappity-faloppity unfair.
All this aside, there is also the point to take into consideration that my sister fell into the shallow end of the gene pool - not in looks - she has eyes in which stars dance - but in the fact that her body doesn't work as efficiently as it should and is a little bit broken.....and this sister of mine carries her stress in her bones, so now she is a bit sicker than normal. I try to tell her to just stop and breathe but she is a go, go, go person and just can't for one second stop.
How do I help her from so far away? How do I give her a hug and let her cry on my shoulder? Times like this makes me hate being so far away....the funny thing is that even though I would do anything to be able to go home right now and help her, our relationship is stronger for me being away. Put us together and we fight like cat and dog, keep us apart and mucho love flows between us... I know there are things about me that drive her nuts and vice versa. She can be stubborn, and hair-raisingly feisty. She can disappear from your radar for weeks at a time - although when you consider she is holding down a full-time job, just finished her Master's degree and now has to complete a teacher-training one, and has had to basically do her lesson plans from scratch as the person's whose job she filled didn't leave any kind of structure or help behind, and then is a wife and mom - well, it seems understandable that her life can be a bit chaotic. Sometimes I am bugged that we haven't spoken in ages, but then sometimes I am busy too. To be honest I don't know how she does it. I am the slacker in our family. I know you shouldn't pigeon-hole but it just seems that that is who I am. My sister has not had a easy run at all, but she puts her head down and just keeps on pushing through, and nine times out of ten comes up smelling of roses - but that is what hard work gets you right?
I think I just get so cross that people just have no decency and think nothing of trying to destroy a person's career. I get so cross that my sister suffers as she does, not just emotionally right now, but physically too. I get so cross that she can't defend herself and her hands are tied, but I know she will have her day in court and the truth will prevail. No one who has ever met her can believe the accusations she is facing, and support for her has come from far and wide as well as the most unexpected places. But finally I get so cross because what is the point of kicking a dog when it is already down?
